First Blog...

Welp... this is my first blog... EVER! Not sure how it really works, but I am sure I can figure it out. I'm getting started doing this because I was recently diagnosed with breast cancer and decided I needed a way to get all my thoughts and feelings out. You know, sometimes there are just things you can't say to people when you are speaking to them because, let's face it, it does get a little emotional.
So let's see... I can get into when and how I found out I have cancer, but that was like a month ago. Long story short, I was putting on lotion after a shower, felt a lump, and called the doctor a good two weeks later because it wasn't going away. Why two weeks? I'm 30! Who the heck is thinking to themselves they they are going to be getting cancer at 30?! Not me. Anyway, gyno thought it was a good idea to get it checked, so I had my first breast sonogram and mammogram in one day, followed by a biopsy the next... and within 2 weeks I had a bilateral mastectomy. Fun stuff. Good thing I am a teacher and this is summer, right?
Well, this is where I am now. I, from what my breast surgeon said, hold the record for getting my drainage tubes out the quickest (less than 1 week, thank you!), and now I'm just taking it easy. This is hard being that I do have a 4 year old and 1 one year old, but my husband has been great, and... we are so taken care of. Our wonderful daycare has brought us a feast every day for the past week and are helping with the baby. Our friends are great too. Company is always welcome! Everyone is so supportive, it really touches my heart.
This past Friday we made a trip to a wig store for the first time to get an idea of what I need to be looking into. I start chemo on Thursday, and once the hair starts falling out, I want to be ready. I found 2 I loved, so I am going back in tomorrow (Monday) to make final decisions. Pretty excited about that. Well, more excited about getting out of the house than anything else. I mean, I did the Costco thing yesterday, and was ready to get out of there within minutes. I don't know if it's all the medicine I am on from the surgery or just plain weakness, but it was awful. The wig place is better because I am sitting and being pampered. Who could ask for anything better?
Well, That is pretty much where I am at this moment. taking it easy and getting ready for what many consider the fight of my life. Am I ready? No, but we will just roll with it. I will stay as positive as positive can be, and I know I am not only fighting for myself, but for my boys. Hmmmm.... I guess that is about it for now. I could get into how this whole ordeal has made me postpone, or maybe even cancel my annual Disney World trip that we go on every summer, but we will not open that can of worms just yet :)