Listen to your body

I think the one thing I have heard over and over again is "listen to your body". When you have cancer, have had major surgery, and are putting yourself and body through all kinds of garbage, you really do need to listen to it. "Listening" isn't just saying, "Oh, I'm tired, let me sit for a second and I will be good to go". No! It is take an hour or two long nap if you need it and don't worry about the world around you at all. Everything will be taken care of.
See, my problem is that I do have two small kids. I feel the need to be with them every second because I am a mommy and want to be the World's Best! This is so hard when you are sick. We all of a sudden can't do all our weekend activities like normal. Like, going to the mall just to window shop and look around the Disney Store, or go to Costco and/or Sam's to fight the crowds. It's hard all of a sudden... not only that, it is 107 degrees outside!
Well, we tried a late afternoon Costco trip yesterday. Did our normal round of shopping of the necessities (and other things we didn't really need), and I thought I did pretty well. I was very proud of myself. As long as I was moving and not standing still, I had energy and thought nothing was going to touch me. That is, until I started walking to the car (again in the 107 degree weather).
As soon as I was in the car, my body started yelling at me or something. All of a sudden pains I hadn't felt before came crashing on top of me and it wasn't quite time for my pain pills. I figured I would go home, sit down, and all would be grand.
Well, as soon as I got home, I passed clear out. I was awoken by my husband reminding me that we had plans to go to the circus. Although my body was still telling me not go move, I didn't listen. I had to be the best mom, and I had to get up and get ready. I mean, all I would be doing is sitting right? Right. The circus was awesome. My weakness wore off and I was laughing and enjoying myself just like any other day. And the best part of all was seeing an old friend that I haven't seen in ages. Thanks again Liz for the tickets :)
But man, when we got in the car, exhaustion really set in. I was ready to pass out! I think it was close to 10:00 when we made it home, I ate a not so great bean burrito from Taco Bell, then crashed in bed. I think I slept til after 1 this afternoon.
I did listen to my body today, and I feel much more refreshed. Still a little afraid to do my daily exercises, but we will work on that.
Tomorrow's plan is to go to Baylor Medical Center. They have a 2 hour class where they teach you how to apply makeup and do other beauty things that help after you loose your eye brows and eye lashes. They apparently give you all kinds of tips and freebies. Very excited! I love free stuff.
I am also glad that we did postpone our family trip. I can already tell that I would not at all be into seeing my favorite mouse at this early in the game.
I really am trying to be the best darn mom in the world, but it is hard. I think this is the one thing that is killing me the most. My body just wont allow me to do everything that I am used to. The good thing is that these two boys are so young that they may not remember the 5 months that Mommy couldn't do EVERYTHING that they are used to me doing. But, I think as long as I am listening to what I need, or not, to do I will be fine. We can only see, I can only do what I can do, and can thank my lucky stars that I have such an amazing husband, family, and friends that are making this hard, difficult journey a lot easier than it could be. Thank you!